Speech Therapy
Exodus 4:10–12 (KJV)
“And Moses said unto the Lord, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither heretofore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slow tongue.
And the Lord said unto him, Who hath made man’s mouth? or who maketh the dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? have not I the Lord?
Now therefore go, and I will be with thy mouth, and teach thee what thou shalt say.”
I was in and out of speech therapy from the age of six to sixteen. It affected my education greatly, leading to me being placed in the lowest stream at school and losing two terms in Year 4 of secondary school. I also failed my English exam at college because the oral section was too difficult for me.
So how have I reached the point where I am now able to teach and speak normally?
It is all because of God’s grace and constant help. For years, I was unable to communicate effectively and missed out on many jobs because I could not express myself properly in interviews.
I felt different and difficult — like a walking disaster zone, of no use to anyone. I blamed myself, my parents, and everyone around me for the bullying. Yes, sometimes I irritated people, and sometimes I still do.
How do you deal with all the hurt?
I came to Christ just before my sixteenth birthday, completely and totally insecure. But now, at sixty-six years old, I am completely secure, all because of the Lord.
He has forgiven my past and taught me that, since I have been forgiven much, I must truly forgive from the heart those who have hurt me.
My favourite passage in the whole Bible is Ephesians 1:3–14. In these verses is all the security you need. You have been redeemed, sealed, adopted, and loved in every possible way.
Another passage that has been a great help to me is Psalm 139. To know that God loved me even when I was in my mother’s womb brings me great comfort.
God has seen everything I have been through, and He completely understands our deep hurt and all the tears we have shed. He keeps them in a special bottle.
Psalm 56:8 (KJV)
“Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?”
Whether people reject or accept me, I know that my Lord says, “Come unto me.” I do not have to strive for His acceptance.
Matthew 11:28–30 (KJV)
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
He calls me His son — that is a privilege beyond words.
Romans 8:14–18 (KJV)
“For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God.
For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.
The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God:
And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together.
For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.”
Devotional Thought
Lastly, I am able to pour out my heart to Him, because He completely understands.
Psalm 62:8 (KJV)
“Trust in him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us. Selah.”
You may have gone through trauma in your childhood — whether bullying, sexual abuse, rape, or a physical ailment like mine — but there is healing and refuge in the power of the cross. Come to Jesus and let Him cleanse your past.
There are still marks, flashbacks, and memories, but the pain has gone. Jesus has set me free.
Believe it or not, I am now an English teacher, a writer, and secure in Christ.
I am only these things because I came to the cross, and I continually come to be washed by the precious Word of God, which tells me that I am free from my past and secure not only for today, but for eternity.
Praise His name.
May this help someone.
God bless you.
KK